Developing spiritual awareness is a process of allowing yourself to be the witness of the world, which includes intuition and allowing space for synchronicity, and to develop a belief system that is truly yours even if no one else can validate it for you and even if it defies all authority of modern civilization. Fateh Bolivar
My journey into the Spiritual Realm is a story that has developed over the course of 60 years. My ancestors from my Mother’s side came from the Andes in Peru and Andalusia Spain. I had always an awareness of the mixture of the awe of nature, natural signs, and the connection to sacred sites in Peru, to my Soul, the earth, and our beginnings. At an early age, I was aware of the conflicts between modern life, survival and religion with my heritage, as a native American and northern European immigrant from my Father’s side. My connection to the natural world and all of her wonders is deeply rooted.
I was 10 when I first went to Peru, I had an immediate connection to the indigenous peoples. I loved walking through the markets and communicating with the locals. I visited many sacred sites discovering the power of my ancestors at an early age, and through hearing the stories of my grandmother and aunties… all who are now long gone. In the next 5 years, until I was 15, I visited Peru every year to be with my family. Then during my university years I was for 8 years in Hawaii, I didn’t go back for another 10 years to Peru, but spent more time at sacred sites in Hawaii and Asia, and feeling the magic of the “huella” the invisible frequency of when many people have left their essence of their presence on a special place – this my Mother told me was how to tap into the energy of a sacred place. Being aware of these frequencies in the world deeply formed my spiritual connection throughout my life.
When I first discovered southeast Asia; first I went to Bali and Thailand. Bali had me mesmerized. At that time in the 80s Bali’s spiritual heartbeat was overwhelming and it felt like I had gone home. I often dreamed about the cremation ceremony I witnessed at Goa Lewar so long ago; long before there was a parking lot there for tourists to visit the temple. I danced with the young boys who threw the ashes and flowers in the sea, and that memory was etched in my mind for the rest of my life. It was the beginning of a lifetime of being in love with Balinese culture, a multireligious culture all splendidly combined: Shamanic, Buddhist and Hindu. Bali Dharma spoke to my soul’s frequency of respect and community connected by the Karma.
Over the years, I returned many times to Bali. I was searching for my spiritual connection in Bali, and I met a healer when I needed him as I was in a state of chronic pain from a hit and run car accident. Pak Komang came into my life and showed me what a true miracle is, to see the unseen world, and to fold into a space where life had other meanings and the nuances of the divine that were not part of a religion, but of a way of life. He told me I was like a bird coming back to the island – the island of the Gods. To become a healer in Bali it’s required to take on ancestral spirits into your body consciousness. A Healer must have a calling – they don’t become shamans through a series of classes or certifications. A healer will receive messages from the beyond usually in dreams, and may even get very sick and usually then first cure themselves, and then they become the channel of the techniques and messages of how to do each healing as if they have known them all along. Spirit guides them in the healing sessions, and they see amazing things. Healing happens in layers, meaning your pain point might not get touched the first time, for example, the source although seemingly physical, may have an emotional imbalance as the root. A healer might not talk to you about anything and just do what spirit is leading them to do – once I had a whole bowl of temple water splashed in my face, and to my surprise the emotional imbalance I was having dissipated completely!
Perhaps because I knew Bali before mass tourism had reached the island that I was able to discover a world that is now hard to find. You can see allot of art, beautiful hotels, exotic dances and even take part in a ceremony as a tourist… but yet there is another side of Bali with a profoundly deeper connection to the beyond. To reach this part of Bali I truly believe you need to have a guide, an invitation to participate, and this starts your healing process. In this phase of my life, I have dedicated myself to bring souls home.
The year I had met Pak Komang, was when I had just completed my Kundalini yoga teacher’s training at an Ashram in New Mexico. When I left Bali and went straight to India because I wanted to meet the Karmapa. Karmapa is one of three people still alive – who have predicted their own exact reincarnations. The Karmapa has predicted his rebirth exactly 17 lifetimes.
To visit the Karmapa the personal invitation had to come from the Dali Lama (12 lifetimes self-predicted) or the Thai Situpa Rinpoche (14 lifetimes self-predicted) – there was no other way, and I was committed to receive the permission required. With this determination I traveled to the Himalayas and stayed at the Serab Ling Monestary. After a month at the monastery and several sessions with the Thai Situpa Rinpoche, he finally allowed me to visit with Karmapa. In his presence, was the only time in my life I have levitated – it was a sensation I was not expecting, and the person I was with had the exact same experience.
Indeed, receiving a healing or even meeting an authentic healer is a divinely bestowed gift as the Dali Lama told me on another occasion. I was blessed enough to meet all three masters. Meeting a healer and receiving their energy is called transmission. Being in the presence of the Karmapa was a strong transmission that changed my life from that point on. The process and the healing may take months, or even be over several years until you fell it or are aware of it, and it never stops it’s like entering a spiral dance and it will go on in this life and the life beyond it’s also a “huella”. The layers of energy that a human being has are very intricate and healing is like opening one layer at a time as the body is ready to release and receive. Over the last 20 years, I have brought people in small groups to to work with healers, and many miracles happened, some dramatic, some subtler, but miracles all the same. My network of healers has grown over the years, and now I am once again bringing small groups to Sacred place of the earth – Pachamama, as we say in Quechua the Incan language, to have an experience that is crafted to open your heart and connect you with your soul in a place where that is uniquely possible in such a divine vortex. I am a tapestry weaver bringing people to the place they need to be in the great movement of time and space.
